stress much?

i 'think' im having insomnia or sumthing

cant seem to shut my eyes

if so, it would be around 2 or 3 or 4

my record is 7 in the morning

few years back

its still all a blur why im acting like this

lately,i've been browsing stuff to

'overcome stress'

just reading them stresses me out

i stay up so late,staring at the ceiling for hours

teaching myself to cool down...

not really helping

for instance, tonight

i promised myself to start fresh everyday

be a good girl

sleep at 10 wake up at 8

i think about doing that too much

until i overthink till who knows when

parents,teachers & friends hope i do well in the future

they're worried but,

have they ever thought i was the one going through it all?

not to be melodramatic or anything but,

im at risk, im the one whose gonna fall off the titanic

see!overthinking again

the holidays are ending soon

finals is nearing

& im not prepared, i've never been

i hope i dont do things last minute

believing in myself is also the issue

too insecure

for once in my life i want MY teacher & MY parents to say

im proud of you thila :D

& not yelling at me

where's my shooting star when i need one...

ThilaCamillo