Killing somebody

i have this crazy urge(s) lately
first i wanted to get married sooo badly
now i want to kill someone
im just frust-ing about it

too much pressure on me
forcing me to do this & that
i thought its MY future
i MAKE the best of it

i dont need 'pop-up blockers' in my life
telling me whats wrong
whats right
me in my right mature mind
knows what to do

whenever i answer a question
theres those people who ask me 'why'
whaat? words keep twisting
i get so confused..

i really wish i could wake up
from this nightmare..

pinch me
                                                                               thilaCamillo