Degree in Daughtristry.

   Yeah, I've earnt something I haven't been hearing lately. A compliment from papa saying that there was something wrong with me (in a good way) and he told me to keep it up. Cleaning up alot, studying more than before. For once, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

    I really earnt it. Im happy to have seen changes in me. Still, my sleep is taking over me, same with my not-eating-in-school-disorder. When I sleep its like Im a dead log says papa. Im like unconcious.. I cannot hear anyone or feel any movements or even realise that Im mumbling. Im sucha heavy sleeper.

    Then there's not eating in school. Start la, all those diet questions. sure, I dont eat breakfast or during break time but you have never seen me stuff my face at home. Its like im a whole different eater. Dad said its the time of age when you will eat and put on weight.. But the scale goes back and forth for me.

   Papa was like pestering me to study in the US. I completely objected. I mean, I have no heart as cold as ice to leave my friends. Its like letting go part of my life. Plus, Im bad at making friends. Somewhere in the middle, my smartass brother was like, 'I want thila to get married in America' I was like wthelll........ I cant even control my love life? very nice. He asked me to get a Camaro and all.. very nice la.. Im Thila Trump izit?

   I hope mommy like delays few more years until I end my SPM. Still, I dont wanna leave. Im very heavyhearted. Lately, I wanna tell this out to everyone but none of them seem to listen. At one point, I felt, they wouldnt give a damn if I left.  When Im beaing dead right serious, Its like Im the girl who cried wolf as well. Why is the human mentality is so complicated?

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