Finally.
As tears of insecurity rolled down my cheek, a thought of you floated in my head. Words that said 'This wouldn't have happened if I never met you' Emotions poured out through my heart as tears like the nile river flowed.
The sacrifices that my closest ones make, I feel useless, unindependant,weak. Faults point back at me, Im supposed to solve them. I thought I'd be able to wake up as a new person, but instead I started my month with tears and pain.
Tonight as I sit here, I feel unwanted, seperated from civilization. Living in my own world, thinking there are happily ever afters just like that. But I assumed like the speed of light. No one told me this was gonna be a smooth ride. There will be loopholes, bridges, hills and valleys.
Each day I think oof something different to say every night but I end up repeating like a broken record. Saying I love you is not what I should be doing but to feel that I love you thats what I'd ask for. Right this moment I just wished to be held in your arms with me pouring my heart out.
Im just afraid,timid, and a silly little girl. Jelousy adds heat. Feeling a loss of someone hurt more than anything. Death would be peaceful but to loose someone, it re-alter's my path. My past was a teribble one but Im lucky to have survived this far.
My world, rainbows shine their colours so cheerfully while I sit under an old oak tree, just letting diamond droplets roll as it dosen't mean a thing. All I can do is send my love to him because finally I know I've met someone who I'd share my life with. This I promise.
thilaCamillo
The sacrifices that my closest ones make, I feel useless, unindependant,weak. Faults point back at me, Im supposed to solve them. I thought I'd be able to wake up as a new person, but instead I started my month with tears and pain.
Tonight as I sit here, I feel unwanted, seperated from civilization. Living in my own world, thinking there are happily ever afters just like that. But I assumed like the speed of light. No one told me this was gonna be a smooth ride. There will be loopholes, bridges, hills and valleys.
Each day I think oof something different to say every night but I end up repeating like a broken record. Saying I love you is not what I should be doing but to feel that I love you thats what I'd ask for. Right this moment I just wished to be held in your arms with me pouring my heart out.
Im just afraid,timid, and a silly little girl. Jelousy adds heat. Feeling a loss of someone hurt more than anything. Death would be peaceful but to loose someone, it re-alter's my path. My past was a teribble one but Im lucky to have survived this far.
My world, rainbows shine their colours so cheerfully while I sit under an old oak tree, just letting diamond droplets roll as it dosen't mean a thing. All I can do is send my love to him because finally I know I've met someone who I'd share my life with. This I promise.
thilaCamillo
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